Emily is sewing a doll to look like Ana. A small one. We can put pins in it like a voodoo doll.

Originally Written on September 15, 1993
Posted on by Jennifer Heller

I have a zit!  Right under my nose!  It is huge.

I hate Ana!  I am so mad I could kill her! She pretended to be Steve on the phone!  She and Melissa.  Emily is the only one I told.  We are planning revenge.  Emily is sewing a doll to look like Ana.  A small one.  We can put pins in it like a voodoo doll.  Although it won’t work, we are going to leave it in Ana’s locker.  Ana likes Scott.  Scott can be nice, but he’s ugly!  Perfect blackmail!  Yesterday I thought I’d have to dance w/Keorber!  I mean what a geek!  Instead we got re-paired and I got Gary.  He is such a bad dancer!  Of course I am too, so we look okay together.  Alexis broke up w/Gary.  I don’t know why she went out w/him in the first place.

Today I banged my head on a stone pillar!  It still hurts and I have a cut and a bump!  When it happened I almost cried.  Almost man, it hurt.  God what’d I do to deserve this AND the zit?!!!

I don’t know but if I had to guess, it would be because you are planning to make a VOODOO DOLL in the likeness of one of your FRIENDS.

I think I just felt someone’s gaze throughout the day.

Originally Written on September 8, 1993
Posted on by Jennifer Heller

Why is it I am so self-conscientious around Gate. Any Gate event kills me. Daily I have Gate Science. The class itself is ok, but the people in it make me feel so strange. Partly is my past. I’m always thinking that everyone there has already judged me, and I have no more chances. Sandy’s not in the class thank God. I think Andy was staring at me. I think I just felt someone’s gaze throughout the day. Maybe it was Chan again. He was in a lot of my classes. I don’t know why I’ve been crying.

Tomorrow is the beginning of 7th grade. I’m not nervous.

Originally Written on September 7, 1993
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Tomorrow is the beginning of 7th grade. I’m not nervous. My classes are spread out all over the school.

I have an absolutely great outfit. It is all black w/a crochet vest. Crochet is in.

Today Mom and I went to get stuff. I got myself a new brush and deodorant and Clearisil. I need it to get rid of the many zits on my forehead. I’m lucky though my bangs cover them.

Mom told her that I was going to get bras!!!! Judy didn’t make a big deal out of it though.

Originally Written on August 30, 1993
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Today Mom and I went through my wardrobe.  I had to try everything on and mom was watching my every move.  About ¾ of the way through Mom asked me if I wanted to get some training bras.  I’m flat as a board, but I said yes.  It was obvious that mom was just as embarrassed about it as I was.

Alexis is getting some discharge.

Tomorrow we are getting schedules.  I’m not really worried.

I got a new storage unit for my closet.  Also a new shelf.  I might be getting a vanity.

Judy came over.  Dad told her that I was thinking (wanting) a vanity and she agreed with me!  Mom told her that I was going to get bras!!!!  Judy didn’t make a big deal out of it though.

It’s hard to believe school starts in days.  I’m not nervous at all!  It is too bad I don’t share Erica’s feelings of scaredness.  NOT!!!!  Now I know how Becky felt last year when I was nervous and she wasn’t.

I’m going to wear some light eyeshadow and lipstick this year.  You can hardly tell I have any eyeshadow on.

Mom and Dad want to give away my dresses.  I don’t mind.

I don’t want to get braces.  A retainer would be fine with me.  Why do I have to go through having braces twice when other people don’t even have to have them once?!!!!

Since Sandy likes Steve, it’ll be two for the price of one! I’ll get Steve and I’ll get back at Sandy.

Originally Written on August 6, 1993
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Emily came over today. She said Erica had told her who I liked. (Andy) I don’t know who to believe! There is no other way for Emily to find out. Oh, I don’t know. I really like Steve. He’s cute, and nice, even though he can be a jerk. As long as he’s nice to me, I won’t care. Since Sandy likes Steve, it’ll be two for the price of one! I’ll get Steve and I’ll get back at Sandy.

The party was great. I had the best time! So did everyone else.

Originally Written on August 8, 1993
Posted on by Jennifer Heller

I’m not doing well. All I can think about is Steve. Steve this, Steve that. Last night I dreamed of Steve. Every night I wish Steve would call. At my party yesterday everyone was talking ‘bout Steve. For about five minutes.

Only three people came! Everyone else was out of town or busy. The party was great. I had the best time! So did everyone else. We went swimming, danced and pigged out. It was a blast!

Tomorrow I’m getting my teeth out. Blech. I wish I’d get braces. You know what I mean. I want straight teeth! Continue Reading

I hate Sandy so much, and maybe now she will be nicer to me.

Originally Written on August 4, 1993
Posted on by Jennifer Heller

I don’t know what it is. I’m using green pen! Maybe it’s the light.

Steve is fine. I can’t believe the guy Sandy likes, likes me! I hate Sandy so much, and maybe now she will be nicer to me. Or not. I miss Becky. Sandy could get the rest of the popular group to actually stop bugging me! How Cool! Then again she could get them to start bugging me even more! Then again she could get them to start bugging me even more! Then I wish I could go up to them and say: “Get off my back.” Real firm like. Of course I couldn’t. Maybe I could get Steve on them.

Catcha Later! Continue Reading