I keep wishing that Steve would give me a dedication on Wild 107.7.

Originally Written on August 3, 1993
Posted on by Jennifer Heller

Wonderful!  I am writing with the 10-color pen Sara gave me!  It’s cool.  You know what Becky said?  Sandy likes Steve!  She is one of my lifelong enemies!  Sandy likes the guy that likes me!  I hope Steve asks me out.  That way I have the guy Sandy wants.  How cool!  I’m not trying to be mean or anything but she was so mean to me!  I think we will be even!  I swear that’s so cool!  Sandy will finally admire me.  I hope!

My birthday party is on Saturday.  2 people already can’t come!  It’s horrible.

Later on:  I keep wishing that Steve would give me a dedication on Wild 107.7.  It’s so crazy, I know your:….I forgot.  Steve is cute.  I mean really cute.  I think he’s fine.  But I’m not really in love or anything, but having him want to ask me out made me like him.  It’s cookoo I know, but I don’t care. Continue Reading

In one hour I will be 12! I LOVE MY LIFE!!!

Originally Written on August 2, 1993
Posted on by Jennifer Heller

In one hour I will be 12!  I LOVE MY LIFE!!!  I swear it!  I’m 12 (almost).  My room is clean.  My closet is organized.  My parents are wonderful.  I have the cutest sister in the world, who just gave me a $25 poster that I have been wanting forever!  My parents are giving me a $97 phone (I hope!)

I LOVE MY LIFE!!!  The only thing that’s wrong with it is that my best friend isn’t here to share it with me.  And that Steve isn’t my boyfriend! yet!  I am working on it.  Okay, so I’m not, but I will be!  This whole entry must sound corny but it’s how I feel! Continue Reading

I wish Steve would call tonight. I wouldn’t mind. Even if he wakes me up!

Originally Written on August 1, 1993
Posted on by Jennifer Heller

2 more days!  I am not really excited about being twelve.  The only thing that is happening is my phone.  And my party.  I’m going to have a movie party.  We will see “Coneheads”, come back and have pizza, not a big deal.

My present from Mom and Dad is the phone.  Nothing else.  Sara is giving me the poster from the Nature Co.  It’s of a underwater scene.

We haven’t gotten the phone bill yet, so how much I spent talking to Becky.  I hope it was reasonable.

Tomorrow we are going to copy the invitations, which I made myself, Thank you!  And mail them.  They will be late but, Oh well!  My party’s on Saturday.  This Saturday.

I wish Becky was here when I’m bored.  I have to be bored.  I can’t be bored on the phone with her, it sucks!

I wish Steve would call tonight.  I wouldn’t mind.  Even if he wakes me up!  I really like him.  He’s cute, he’s popular, he’s funny, he’s very popular and he’s nice.  What isn’t there to like?

TAA! Continue Reading

I don’t like Andy anymore. Now I like Steve. Cool. He’s cute, popular. I was about to say he’s smart. Well he might be.

Originally Written on July 31, 1993
Posted on by Jennifer Heller

I don’t like Andy anymore.  Now I like Steve.  Cool.  He’s cute, popular.  I was about to say he’s smart.  Well he might be.  I hope he doesn’t do to me what he did to Sarah T.  He asked her out and a couple minutes later he dumped her.

For my birthday I’m getting a phone.  Then Becky’s phone can be given to Erica!  I think I’ll get the Swatch Twin Phone.  It’s cool but its $97!  I don’t think Mom and Dad are going to spring for it.  Unless we get the money.  And then were moving to Arkansas.  Blech!  Hell! Continue Reading

In three days I’m 12, and I HAVE A COLD SORE! It’s Hell!

Originally Written on July 30, 1993
Posted on by Jennifer Heller

Okay so I didn’t write the next day.  I don’t want to bore you with the details of the trip anyway.  Let’s just say it sucked.

In three days I’m 12, and I HAVE A COLD SORE!  It’s Hell!

I just have to hope I don’t see Steve!  What if then he wouldn’t want to go out with me?  How horrible!

Catcha later.

I can tell you Mom and Dad weren’t too happy about my getting phone calls at midnight.

Originally Written on July 18, 1993
Posted on by Jennifer Heller

It’s about 1 am. An hour ago I got a phone call.
Me: “Hello?”
Answer: “Hi, may I speak to Jennifer please?” The voice was male
Me: “Speaking”
Male voice: “Hi, uh this is Steve’s cousin.”
Me: “uh, hi”
Background: “I didn’t tell you to say who, you idiot!”
Male voice: “Uh, someone likes you…..Jennifer?”
Me: “Yeah”
Male voice: “Steve likes you and he want to ask you out on the first day of school.”
Background: “You IDIOT!!”

I don’t remember the rest. I can tell you Mom and Dad weren’t too happy about my getting phone calls at midnight.

Especially when the phone rang two more times. Once from Ana and then from Melissa. You see Steve had called Melissa to get my phone #. Melissa didn’t have it so called Ana. Ana gave it to her and Melissa called Steve back with it.

Near the end of the school year, Steve had asked me out. He was just kidding or so I thought.

I have to tell Erica. I don’t like Steve or at least I don’t think I do. On the phone Melissa said he was cute. I’m not a very good judge of cute. On the phone with Steve’s cousin, I wanted to say that he could ask me out sooner than the first day of school. Of course I didn’t, I’m so nervous.

Let me tell you, on the phone with Steve’s cousin I was sweating like a pig. Continue Reading

Fuck! just got red pen on the same shirt as the blue!

Originally Written on July 17, 1993
Posted on by Jennifer Heller

Today I’m using red and orange, for these are the colors that usually represent hot. And hot I am! All day I’ve been totally sweating. Well lets give up the hot. Every other subject will be red.

1st Subject: People I hate.

Spoiler alert!! There is no second subject!

Ana. Bitch of all Bitches. Queen of fat. Duke of ugly. President of mean. You get the picture?

Julie. Don’t know why but I do.

Megan. Bitch. Even meaner than Ana. That’s pretty mean, too. Continue Reading

I’m glad that “paper is patient”. I pour all my secrets in this diary. Well almost all of them. I suppose there are still some.

Originally Written on July 16, 1993
Posted on by Jennifer Heller

I haven’t written for awhile ‘cause there’s been nothing going on. Erica’s been back for a few days now. I wrote Becky. I still think about Andy alot. He’s usually on my mind.

The last night before last Dad brought home Glider. When I found it (in the silverware drawer) I yelled with pleasure.

You can yell with pleasure too! Glider is a really great game. I still love it, and it’s available for download and will work on most computers!!

Today he brought home Tetris. Those are my favorite games. Before I barely was on the computer. Now I’m addicted. I have to wear the amulet to keep away the computer “vibes”. I don’t mean to brag, but I’m the best at Glider.

I’m glad that “paper is patient”. I pour all my secrets in this diary. Well almost all of them. I suppose there are still some. I know somebody’s going to read this, so I’m apprehensive of what I write.

Becky always used to laugh at what I wrote. I felt, hey, what kind of best friend would laugh at my feelings? I think it’s absolutely horrible.

In fact I used to write my secrets in cursive, so she couldn’t read it. I have alot of anger towards her. Today I’m going to pour everything about Becky into here. Wonderful. I just marked my white shirt with blue. (You can laugh at that) Continue Reading