What a day! Mike was absent. In Science I did my presentation. I was really nervous. Mr. Rose didn’t go in any particular order so when he called my name, I wasn’t expecting it. I didn’t speak loud enough, so Mr. Rose was always telling me to speak louder. When I finished people clapped. I mean they actually clapped. The funny thing is that I don’t remember them clapping for anyone else. Lord, I wish I had paid more attention. It made me so nervous that they clapped. I don’t know why.

Alexis wasn’t especially bitchy today. I don’t see her at all until block. You know, when I stopped eating w/ them I lost all my connections to guys. Earlier in the year I was always talking to some guy. Whether it was Billy or Dave S. or Jeff. I kind of wish I was still in that part of our group. What group? There isn’t a group. There are a bunch of people that eat lunch near each other but no “group”. I kinda like it better this way, I just walk from place to place with different people. I just wish I was welcome in the little group that Ana, Alexis, and Natalie seem to have formed.

Robbie likes Keri R. I mean, she’s nice, and all, but they’re going to go out. I can’t help but to be jealous: I was talking to him in block, (Yipeeeeeee) and he said that he won’t ask Keri out ’cause Kelly H. (the bitch) likes him and it would be uncomfortable. For some reason, I found myself telling him to ask her out. I geuss I’d rather have him be happy and me miserable, then him miserable and me miserable. She might say no, but she’ll probably say yes. Continue Reading

Hi! I’m sitting around with Emily. I HATE Alexis.

Yesterday at Natalie’s b-day party, I had a great time. Alexis wasn’t being especially bitchy or anything. She was just acting sort of… well I geuss you could say she was ignoring me, but she did try to talk to me a few times. She was doing a pretty good job of acting like it was okay between us until we were on out way home from the movie theatre. Erika H. called me some stupid name and I turned my head upside down so I could see her in the seat behind me. Alexis was also sitting behind me. From my position, (upside-down) I could see both Erika and Alexis. I glanced at Alexis and for the split second I was watching her, I saw that she was glaring at me. I swear, her eyes were narrowed and her lips were puckered up. I think she’s capable of doing anything when she’s that mad!

I wonder what I’d say if Mike would ask me out. Of course I’d say yes but how? I don’t want to act totally deperate by jumping for it. Then again, I don’t want to act like it’s no big deal because it is! Continue Reading

HAPPY Thanksgiving!

I wonder what it would be like to have a boyfriend. I mean, would he walk with you to your classes? Would he give you a hug when you leave each other? God, I hope so. I’ve never been hugged by a guy. That’s because I have no real guy friends. I have some but not good friends.

Dad gave me the stereo system that was in the Computer Room. I asked for it last night, but I wasn’t serious. Now I have it! It’s so much nicer than the old little one I had before.

Tomorrow’s Natalie’s party. I hope Alexis isn’t a bitch. She will be anyway, since it’s her natural behaviour. She come from a long line of bitches. I bet her mom’s a bitch, her gradma’s a bitch and so on. I’ll bet.

I was thinking that one time when me and Alexis are going to have a really big fight, I’ll have to me going out w/ Mike for more than two weeks. That way I can say, “At least I can keep my boyfriends for more than two weeks!” I swear she’s afraid of an realationship. I read in YM that if a girl is quick to insult her ex, she wants him back. And at the drop of a pin she’ll insult Jeff and Roger. She’s such a loser. Continue Reading

I named my new GAP Baby bear after Mike. I named him dubleve sanc cinq for W5. It’s in french. W5 is for Who, What, Where When, and Why. Get it? I named my dog that I got him from Great America Martin for Robbie M . Not that he’s a dog or anything. I can always change that one, though. Yestaerday Robbie asked me if I was going out w/ Mike S. I said no, of course. How could he insult me that way. I’d never go out with him. He can be sweet and I consider him a friend. Then, Robbie asked me if I’d gone out w/ Andy. Again I had to say I didn’t.

Emily says Mike was watching me in French. She said she turned around to ask him for a piece of paper and he was watching me. Maybe I have a chance with him.

Yesterday in PE oh god I get embaressed just thinking about it. Continue Reading

Alexis says she doesn’t want to be very good friends with me, anymore. It’s seems that Cassie does, though. She invited me over today, but I couldn’t go because I had the Dreams to Reality Night. I’m going over on Monday. Today after I ate I went around the school w/ Cassie and Kristen B.

Kristen did my hair in a french braid and we were over by the counselor’s office. Suddenly screams broke into our conversation. We went over to the window and inside was what the commotion was about. Standing by the counter was the finest, cutest guy I have ever seen. His hair was dark brown and cut in an excellent mushroom cut. It didn’t look stupid like on other guys, but made him look cute. He had a light tan, and a gold ball in one ear. It made him look sexy not gay. The chain around his neck was the perfect length. He was a wearing a low-neck red T-shirt, with a red and black plaid, flannel shirt over it (the style) and baggy jeans. He is so fine! Continue Reading

All this morning Alexis was probably telling people I was a major bitch. In French she started talking to me, and then apologized. I apologized too, and then we were friends. On the way to block, (whihc is where I am) she stormed off. We had been talking about how next time we go ice-skating, we should bring someone else. I made a joke and said, “Erica!” We started laughing and then Alexis was gone. Was it something I said?

Before PE this morning I was talking to Steve W. Well, alot of us were talking to Steve. I hadn’t talked to him in a long time. He said to me, “I still think you and Mike S. would make a good match.” I said something along the lines of, “I don’t think so!” He said, “You two are made for each other.” I argued, and so on. Anyway, in band I heard a group of trumpets talking about how we would a make a good match! Ahhhhhh! Save me!

Later today Jeff M. started a rumor that I like a girl. He got this idea when I wouldn’t tell him who I like, when he asked. He said he wanted to fix us up. Like I’m going to tell him!!! Continue Reading

When I got Natalies invitation to her b-day party yesterday I was touched. I mean really touched. I was about to cry. But now I don’t know what a good friend Natalie would make if she sides with The first story she she’s. You, know It’s really nice to know you can depend on people when you need them. I can’t, though.

It all started today in lunch. Alexis and Ana were acting really buddy-buddy. I swear, you would think Alexis actually likes her or some junk! They sat in a different place,  than usual. Natalie was w/ them. I approached, wondering why they weren’t sitting in our regular spot. Once I got there all conversation stopped. What a horrible feeling! Immediately Alexis and Ana left to go buy lunch. I’ll bet Natalie hated them for leaving her there w/ me! Soon, I began to feel unwanted, but it never became really obvious till Alexis and Ana were talking on the lawn, and then she called Natalie, who I was talking with to join them. I yelled, “gee, thanks!” sarcastically, and w/ tears in my eyes I got my stuff and left to join people who actually appreciate me! Continue Reading