Hello! Nothing special happening here. I’m just sitting around with Emily. Guess what I don’t like Andrew C. no more. Isn’t that great? I mean if he asked, I’d go out with him! Of course. Now I don’t know who to like. Maybe I’ll like David M. He’s in my advisement class. Nah, Erica likes him. I won’t. Well maybe…

Scool’s boring so TGIS! Becky wrote and asked: Has any guys asked you out yet? Doesn’t she think she’d know if they had?

I want to have a date for the Halloween Dance. (normal name for once!) I thought I’d be going to it w/ Andrew. Oh well. Maybe I’ll have better luck with guys this time.

Bonsoir! Tonight I had to call Amy, Becky, Erika G, and Jenny. It was so wierd talking to Amy on the phone. Here I was talking to the person I’d give anything to be better-than-acquaintences with and I was uncomfortable. Talking to Becki was cool though, she’s so sweet!

No improvements in me and Andrew. I don’t think I like him anymore but I might. Last night I had something like a mental breakdown. I was crying and my mom wasn’t someone I could talk to about it.

Au revoir!

Today Emily asked Andrew if he liked me. He said “no!” Worse yet he said it with scorn! The thing is that I’m to shaken to be upset. I’m still trying to believe he said no! He wasn’t in my dreams. Well, yes he was. The thing is I don’t even know what his face looks like! Can you like a guy if you don’t remember what they look like? Now he knows I like him. Well, he doesn’t know exactly, but he can figure it out. He’s smart.

I’m homesick today. Cool huh? NOT! I have the biggest headache in the whole world. Last night I had something close to a mental break-down. Last night I dreamed about Andrew C. I didn’t like the dream cause even though we were going out Andrew C. also liked Emily. Not good. Tonight I’m going ice-skating. I love to ice skate. It just lets me forget all of my problems.

I hate the fucking crap out of Ana. I hate her more than Emily hates Jennifer M. for going out with Jeff. I’m just glad Andrew C. isn’t going out with anybody.

Today after science Andrew goes to the six-hundred building and I go to band. Anyway Andrew was getting pushed around by his usual friends (the cliche) I (of course) was watching him. I had been watching him for about two seconds and he looked at me! Our eyes met and it was wonderful! Too bad it was only for a few seconds, though!

I’m in Love

Note how I switched to pink ink for “I’m in Love” and followed it by a flock of floating hearts.

PS: Ana likes Jeff M! (geek alert! beep, beep!)

I’m so confused.  I really like Andrew C.  Last year he liked me.  Does he still?  I hope he does.  Ana is such a BITCH!  I hate her more than words can express.  I wish she would curl up and die.  I swear I do.  I would not be sad in the lesat bit if she died.  Except maybe cause I didn’t have the chance to kill her!

Erica G. said that she heard two people that she didn’t know very well talking about my liking Andy.  This was in the beg. of the school year.  I wonder who? Erica knows most of my friends, so…

Alexis said that my liking Andy was “old news.” What is that supposed to mean?  Really! She shouldn’t talk, though.  She likes Steve M. You know that already, huh? Oh, well.  Nicole H. is going out with Tyson B., who is the most popular guy at PMS.  I see them before lunch, Frenching! Today I learned (From Ana who wasn’t supposed to tell) that she likes Kevin Spinner!  After the boyfriend she has Kevin (Geek alert!) would be a major dissapointment.

Emily gave me her monkey stuffed animal.  That was nice of her!  She’s been a real friend lately.

Today in French I went over to talk to Emily as I always do. Michael H. tells me to go back to my seat sort of teasingly. A little while later he came over while Emily and Alexis were at my desk. Michael came over and sorta leaned over from behind my desk. It was weird ‘cause I could feel his breath against my neck. I find myself wondering, if that’s what’s having a boyfriend is like. Having someone near you of the opposite sex. While he was there I got this…feeling, a feeling like this is right. A feeling in the pit of my stomach.

Alexis says that diarys are too private to be shared. She never even let her best friend read it! Hers must be really private.

Today after school I wanted to find out who Alexis likes, so I went to talk to Mike H. After today, I don’t know why I did, but…He was with the clique, as usual. I bravadoly asked him what period Math he had. Anyway, by talking to Amy I found out Alexis likes Steve Munroe. A show of bravado, since I hate talking with people in in the cliche. Sepretely they’re ok, but together I can’t deal with. What a day.

Alexis spends all block with Billy, her “friend.” I know they like eachother. She describes Billy as “a better friend than Jennifer.” It feels weird to have her always talking with him and his friends. They’re all geeky! It feels like I’m losing a not-very-good friend.

I still like Andy. He’s so strange around me, though. The second me and Ana get there he leaves our table. It’s weird. So weird. He’s going out with Alyssia.

Today I brought my Gap Babie bear to school (it was stuffed animal day) who I named Mr. Bad Haircut after Andrew C. Ana kept telling people that he as named after Andrew C. I hate her guts! She is such a BITCH!!!

I could kill her.  And me and Emily are planning revenge!  I cannot express how angry I am.  Lucky thing I told her I was just kidding about liking Andrew C.  I will never forgive Ana, for everything she’s done.